Pretty much c’est moi
“I do not want anyone to get close to me, I do not want anyone to see me, and this is the way things have developed: no one gets close and no one sees me. This is what must have engraved itself in my face, this is what must have made it so stiff and masklike and almost impossible to associate with myself whenever I happened to catch a glimpse of it in a shop window.” —Karl Øve Knausgaard, My Struggle: I